Always...

The Lies.. The Hate.. The Hurt..
It Haunts Me.
I've forgotten what it feels like to be normal.
I'm drowning in my own thoughts.
I Miss You.
The Memories.. The Laughs.. The Smiles..
They Haunt Me.
Knowing I can never have them back.
My Choice.. My Regret..
Dreams make you so real.
But in the morning you are gone.
I am left empty again.
I could go back.
But for what.
To see how well you can live without me?
To see how happy you really are.
So now I am happy.
Happy that I wont be there to screw things up.
Now you can live the life,
You Always Wanted.

~Dreams~

Dreams are for the ones who sleep,
I pray thee Lord my soul to keep.
Should I die and go to hell,
I pray thee Lord my soul to tell.
Tell of my past, the things i did,
Tell how messed up I was as a kid.
Make sure to tell my mom I love her,
And that I wish I could have known her longer.
Then tell of my secrets, the things in my past,
How I tried to be good, but how that didn't last.
Reveal the truth to every soul,
How I was never really good at all.

Lies

Raining tales of deception coursing through my veins,
The shadow of your hatred lingering on my face.
The lies you wrought drip from my hands uncontrollably,
What have you done??

Trembling, I reach out into nothingness.
My hands are stained with your destruction.
My twisted heart beats faster,
Engulfed in misery,
Drowning in sorrow.
What made me do this??

You, and your vile tongue,
Tampering with my insanity.
Convoluting my actions.
It was you who decimated everything.
This is the outcome of your desire.
Why did you do this??

Fiery hatred now flows through my veins,
The end is now for many.
It started with you and ended with me.
Now it is my turn.
What must I choose??

confused

I gave you my heart..
And you took it.

I loved you so much..
Then you broke it.

I asked for it back..
But you kept it.

What could I have done??

Waiting

I'm waiting for the rain to fall,
To wash away my fear.
To destroy the bolders on my path and make it not so drear.
There's no force stopping me but still i cant go on.
To face this fate is not a choice but all it is is wrong.
I'm waiting for the rain to fall,
But all thats there is fog.

BrOkEn

I'm stuck between two places,
I wear two different faces.
When I think about it I cry,
Maybe I just want to die.
What if things had never changed?
Would my life be rearranged?
Nothing seems to make sense,
I'm stuck inside this fence.
All I want to do is get away,
Why should I have to pay?
Everything seems to go wrong,
Like it was supposed to happen all along.
I wish I could have just one golden token,
And my life would not be broken.

Deadly Kiss

I cant stop crying,
My love is spent.
Why are you lying?
My hearts not for rent.
Maybe its time to call it an end,
To stop this crime,
Lets not pretend.
I'll lock up my emotions,
Throw away the key.
I'm tierd of devotion,
I want to be free.
Just let me go,
I'm not coming back.
I dont want to know,
Why we fell off the track.
If things were really ment to be...
For me to be with you,
And you with me.
Then none of this would have happened...